Katia Thornwood – The Making Of A Mistress – Part 3

The start of this story can be found HERE.

The next part of this story can be found HERE.

A dark hero’s journey for the BDSM set. The Making of A Mistress. How Katia Thornwood came to wield her whip and view the world through her particular lens darkly.

Intertwined with stories from the tarot, the tale is one of a young girl who finds herself drawn to the BDSM underworld and sensual intersect of mythical and mundane through an older Mistress, Valleri. When these two women’s path’s meet, the results are nothing short of cataclysmic for Katia. Is it magic? Or insanity? Or does life run with equal amounts of both? Whatever the case. Everything will burn.

 Learn more about Katia Thornwood here.

Amazing Ariel.

This week I am pleased to say I had the delightful Ariel in my kitchen, as I was preparing a cake. And what a wonderful gurl she is. Ariel has found it quite

challenging to live openly as who she really is, and when she came out to one of her best friends a while ago, found that it’s hard for some people to be accepting of her.

Things are going much better for her now, and at 24 she’s steering her life the way it needs to go. She’s currently getting laser hair removal on her arms, legs and chest. Ultimately she plans to live as a woman. After starting hormones.

Ariel is so very lovely, I let her lick some of the cake mix from m

y fingers after I’d been getting quite breathless, mixing up some cake mix. My biceps are in great shape from beating the cake mix so thoroughly! At least, I think that’s why they’re so strong… What a lovely lust for life Ariel has, I thought, as I wiped a little cream from her chin. We do get up to some fun things in my kitchen!

We’d like to be as supportive as possible to Ariel. You can show your support by helping with her Amazon Whishlist. You can find it here.

Ypou can also find Ariel’s Tumblr HERE.

We surveyed 2389 of our crossdresser members to see how they defined themselves. Here are the results.

We surveyed 2389 of our crossdresser members to see how they defined themselves. Here are the results.

Do you consider yourself heterosexual, bisexual or gay?

Heterosexual 786 (35%)
Bisexual 1105 (49%)
Gay 189 (8%)
None of the above 189 (8%)
There were also some very interesting comments made by some of our respondents. Poor Max, he’s been slaving over these numbers, and bringing them down to me as I sit in the spring sunshine.
When I saw how many people said ‘none of the above’ I nearly dropped my Martini! I’ve sent him back three times already to check those numbers, and bring me some sunscreen as well. He’s a good boy.
Among the comments one theme that came through was that some members found that if they were dressing at the time, they felt they were bisexual, however in the day to day life of dressing straight, they ‘felt’ straight and had no same sex attraction whatsoever.
One correspondent noted, rather unusually, ‘I’m 100% straight, I just like dick.’ I did feel the urge to probe that a little further, but resisted. After the first 500 responses the balance stayed more or less where it was at completion, so I am inclined to think these numbers are quite reflective of crossdressing friends.
One respondent did comment:
“Mainly hetero, occasionally bi, bordering on the lesbian part of my gurlishness.  Very often scratching my errrr… you know whats, in utter confusion about the gurl thing, and asking myself – “Why did I have to born a Catholic ?” That bit accounts for most of the guilt that rears its head once in a while…. :)”
Another said:
“I wish I was bisexual,  Haven’t taken that leap of faith and played with a crossdresser like myself, but want it so bad.  I hope for the best – that’s all you can do. And find a safe place to meet some one . I love all that you do .xoxo Patrisha”
Well that’s why we have My Little Black Book. I’d always say, be ready before you take that leap – be sure you’re comfortable with it, and it will be a great experience.
Many of our respondents had the following sentiment:
“I love my wife of 31 years. I love to crossdress and feel girly. I have no desire to be with a man.”
I have seen quite a few comments that reflect the following:
“Never had a gay contact, might enjoy it if I was “forced” by my mistress.”
That’s very much about permission, and something into which we delve in the Premium Program.
One of my favorite comments was:
“I’m heterosexual but finding myself metamorphing into a more feminine persona every time I listen to your hypnosis, read your emails personally addressed to me and spend time fantisizing about cross dressing. Right this moment I’m finding myself feeling quite gay thinking about being taken by men.”
And another:
“I love it when I’m allowed to be the real me, Heather, because that’s who I really am. I enjoy being treated as a real women and this includes sexually. I’ve had several relationships over the years and have been used, but I had one partner who awoke the real Heather in me just with his touch. He was very special.”
The theme of sexual preference shifting when dressed was shown again in this comment:
“I’m always attracted to women AND when I\’m dressed, the opposite gender is especially enticing, and women and interesting in a whole different way.”
An interesting response was:
“Love being dominant with women and submissive with men.”
This was a common theme, too:
I have crossdressed for most of my 50+ years. I love it, and have a difficult time in finding a genetic female to accept me for the well rounded person that I have become. If I have to choose, I will remain alone.”
With this in mind I’ll be doing a little more work shortly about how to find a female collaborator with which to enjoy your crossdressing. Should you know any women who’d like to chat about this to help men understand what they get from it, please email me at fdobson@zoho.com
Feel free to comment below if you’d like to add anything.
🙂
Fiona
– http://FionaDobson.com

Katia Thornwood – The Making Of A Mistress – Part 2

The start of this story can be found HERE.


The next part of this story can be found HERE.

A dark hero’s journey for the BDSM set. The Making of A Mistress. How Katia Thornwood came to wield her whip and view the world through her particular lens darkly.

Intertwined with stories from the tarot, the tale is one of a young girl who finds herself drawn to the BDSM underworld and sensual intersect of mythical and mundane through an older Mistress, Valleri. When these two women’s path’s meet, the results are nothing short of cataclysmic for Katia. Is it magic? Or insanity? Or does life run with equal amounts of both? Whatever the case. Everything will burn.

Enjoy further exploits of Katia Here.

Katia Thornwood – The Making Of A Mistress – Part 1

The start of this story can be found HERE.

The next part of the story can be found HERE.

A dark hero’s journey for the BDSM set. The Making of A Mistress. How Katia Thornwood came to wield her whip and view the world through her particular lens darkly.

Intertwined with stories from the tarot, the tale is one of a young girl who finds herself drawn to the BDSM underworld and sensual intersect of mythical and mundane through an older Mistress, Valleri. When these two women’s path’s meet, the results are nothing short of cataclysmic for Katia. Is it magic? Or insanity? Or does life run with equal amounts of both? Whatever the case. Everything will burn.

You can further enjoy The Katia Chronicals here.

What do you think of my dumplings?

Hi,

“If we slip this sausage between these two buns,” I said to Sylvester, “it looks pretty tasty.”

“I think a little cream…” mused Sylvester, thoughtfully. “Oh… Sebastian’s coming…”

“I’m sorry?” I said.

“Sebastian’s coming! He maķes a lovely seafood dip!” continued Sylvester. “Yes, he’s a good man with a welk. But I think it’s your dumplings that are really going to get people excited,” insisted my hairy friend.

“Yes, I’ve noticed they seem to get people going!”

As you can doubtless tell, Sylvester and I are planning the spring picnic. I’m thrilled to say my wife has returned from her travels.

Regrettably I find myself called away on business in England. I’ll be be returning shortly after she leaves on a long planned ornithological holiday touring western Europe with Amanda and Marjory. I understand she’s been blown away by some of the lesser finches and the abundance of tits.

It’s such a busy time of year but I hope you’re not too busy to participate in My Little Black Book, where for just $2.95 a month you can connect with some new friends from around the globe or around the corner. It can be so nice just to share a little time on Skype and chat about your dressing and compare notes. Perhaps you’ll connect with some friends and find yourself organizing an ornithological tour for yourselves. Who knows, you may even find yourself getting to grips with some tits of your own!

😀

Fiona

Whether you’re one of our members in Africa, or in the far hills of India, Julie, Katia, Oakley and I are here to support you. 70% of our members are in North America, by I strive to include content of interest to our global audience of over 1000 unique visitors a day.  🙂  Fiona

It’s Lipstick Time!

We’re not always going to have the time to get completely dressed. Here’s a great way to quickly enjoy the feminine side of yourself.

This self hypnosis recording will help you feel comfortable using a little lipstick to emphasize the sensual nature of your personality. Be sure you have some lipstick with you when you do this wonderful exercise.

Alexis’ first time.

I am often surprised how very well my members present their stories of their first time crossdressing. Alexis posted this as a comment in My First Time, however I felt the story was so well told it deserved a post of its own. I hope you enjoy this beautifully told story. FD

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Its tough for me to really pin point a “first time”. Over this journey there are many milestones. Let’s start with the big cliche (although true). When I was young, I would steal my sisters panties. When she went away to college, she left 3 pairs of satin panties in her dresser. The first time I tried one on, I knew it was ridiculous but I almost came right off the bat. I kept those pairs for years and used them every time I jerked off….and that was a lot.

During high school and college this urge subsided. When I entered the real world, I was quite a party boy and I loved cocaine. Cocaine and porn became hand in hand and I stopped going out as much and I’d get my stash and start staying home. Just me and my shemale porn (regular porn became boring quick). Unfortunately, the downside here is that coke makes your dick shrivel and regular masturbation almost impossible. So I started looking for things that would get me more turned on and able cum during these moments. Panties reentered the equation…then anal toys….then lingerie…

I held on to these kinks and evolution took hold. For about a decade that held me over… However after I got married and had a kid, the partying had to stop (ok…slow down more like it). Eventually, my lingerie sets, panties, and stockings just weren’t doing it for me. I wanted…needed something more.

I found a store in our town (as luck would have it) and invested in some heels (which had been hard to sneak around and find a size 14) and a couple of dresses and a wig.

Eventually I told my wife (who was aware of my previous kinks) that I wanted to try to go full femme and see how it looked. It was the first time and I even got her to play the domme role. Strap on and everything (first time and I had always wanted it). She even did my makeup which really opened up my mind. I finally actually kind of looked like girls. Not just a dude with a beard in ill fitting lingerie. Shaved the beard the net day (which was tough but internally it was a sign I was ready to commit. She was cool about it but was doing it to spice the sex life up…we had a 1 year old baby and we were exhausted 24/7 and weren’t having sex, so anything was worth trying.

I LOVED it…but didn’t want to tell my wife how much…so I started experimenting on my own. A few more pairs of heel and dresses…but sneaking them around my house hiding these things I paid good money for was becoming unacceptable. I had to tell her where my mind was at. I couldn’t accept living the rest of my life hiding it so fuck it… There was a good chance she’d be cool with it but it was a risk anyway.

So on Christmas Eve eve, I couldn’t sleep it was all that I could think about. When she woke up in the morning, I turned to her and said, “I can’t sleep anymore, I have something on my mind you need to know. I can’t hide it but every night when you go to bed, I get a dressed as a woman, and I can’t live my life hiding it and I have to be open.”

Her reply? “Awesome, I kind of already knew this, but if that’s who you are, then I’m all for it”

Over the last 4 months, our relationship has never been better (except the credit card bills). Going shopping together is SOOOOO much fun. I now have my own panty drawer, bra drawer, lingerie drawer, stockings drawer and half the closet full of dresses, skirts and blouses. Even moved my dude clothes to the guest bedroom. I work from home…so dude clothes only get used a couple times a week.

Anyway, my name is Alexis now. No one knows but my wife…and daughter (but at least shes growing up in a more accepting world). Every day I go a little bit further. Yesterday I tweezed my eyebrows. That was fun…. Anyway, this became more of a life story, but if you made it this far…thanks for reading.

The Making of A Mistress – Introduction.

The next part can be found HERE.

A dark hero’s journey for the BDSM set. The Making of A Mistress. How Katia Thornwood came to wield her whip and view the world through her particular lens darkly.

Intertwined with stories from the tarot, the tale is one of a young girl who finds herself drawn to the BDSM underworld and sensual intersect of mythical and mundane through an older Mistress, Valleri. When these two women’s path’s meet, the results are nothing short of cataclysmic for Katia. Is it magic? Or insanity? Or does life run with equal amounts of both? Whatever the case. Everything will burn.

Your new feminine identity. Self Hypnosis.

When you join my Premium Program for crossdressers, one of the first things we do is assign a name for you, if you haven’t already chosen one. In this simple self hypnosis file we’ve created a powerful tool to help you accept your new name, and learn to identify with it.

Enjoy this relaxing exercise and let me know how you get along with it.

Sylvester wants to squirt some mastic in my crack!

On a fine spring morning like this I often feel compelled to go out and have a jog around the local park and then return for a refreshing morning shower. This morning I did so, with a spring in my step and a discrete bulge in my yoga pants.

After working up a little bit of a sweat running and watching a few of the dog walkers out in the park playing with their balls, (calm yourself Amber in Colorado), I got home, turned on the shower and stepped under the warm stream of rejuvenating water.

I think I smelled as lemon fresh as a grove of lemon trees beside a soap factory when I stepped out of the shower. By the time I sat down at the computer in the kitchen I was ready for anything.

After I opened up my computer two things immediately caught my attention. The first was a delightful email from Kay Lee, who sent this lovely picture. I’m sure you’ll agree she looks delightful.

The second was a drop of water beside my ‘Return’ key on the computer. A moment later there was another. Looking up, I could see a slightly indiscreet stain on the ceiling where some water was seeping through. I moved my computer away from the drip, and then called Sylvester, who is so handy at these things.

Sylvester is such a darling. He hurried round, parking in my wife’s slot, and used my rear entrance. She’s away travelling – I believe she’s in Patagonia this week (wherever that is).

After a lot of huffing and puffing and bending over in the shower he declared very excitedly that he thought he’d have to squirt some mastic in my crack. I felt quite nervous at the suggestion. I’m really not sure what mastic is, but if it helps I guess I will just have to succumb.

Anyway, he’s up there now getting ready. I may have to go and change in a moment. I do hope he takes the proper precautions!

Have a great day.

🙂

Fiona

Releasing Shame With Hypnosis.

Feeling a little guilty about crossdressing? Don’t worry, it’s perfectly natural to feel conflicted feelings about crossdressing. On the one hand you love to do it, at the same time you feel upset about it. This hypnosis file will help you feel more relaxed about it.

 

The Stories Your Mother Never Told You.

There are stories which we choose not to share, for one reason or another. Perhaps it is related to shame or embarrassment. Or maybe we just hold them so dear, that in sharing them they would become devalued.

A friend of mine recently acquired a rather unusual collection of note books which I feel sure you will be delighted to read. He was an elderly man, I will not give very many details, as I would not wish to identify him in any way.

Wrapped in brown paper, of the sort people used for parcels many years ago, these note books were dusty hand written relics. I can well imagine them being tossed out with the trash when someone moved house, or recycled along with old copies of magazines when clearing out a loft or basement.

My friend explained that they had been among some personal papers found in a house that was being sold. The contents of these papers were at first a mystery, then quite surprising – and ultimately quite shocking.

The edited notes will be released soon. Be sure to watch out for them here.

Let’s get a little formal.

Most crossdressers enjoy their activities in a somewhat private way. Unlike ‘drag queens’ they feel a sense of privacy adds to their enjoyment, and definitely don’t wish to step outside of their comfort zone unless there is a well established confidence already built.

While this isn’t the case for everyone, it’s certainly the case for many of my members. I was saying to Sebastian just this Wednesday, as he was helping me adjust my yoga position, I feel an intimate connection with every one of my members. I feel that I understand their struggle and their joy. And it’s a path that’s sadly not understood by many. Even as Sebastian helped me into an inversion, I said that the connection is one that is deep and very personal.

With that in mind, I thought I’d talk this week about wearing some clothes somewhat less associated with crossdressing. I think we all agree that lovely soft evening gowns are very beautiful. For the average woman, there’s a desire to wear them out and be seen. Ironically, because crossdressers tend not to want to go outside in such a public exposure (at least in the early part of their journey), this is an activity that is denied us by society.

That however does not mean that you can’t enjoy these wonderful garments. Especially these days, the cost is not prohibitive. There’s nothing in the world wrong with being ‘overdressed’ in the privacy of your own home. Remember, it’s not so long ago that many people ‘dressed for dinner’.

With this in  mind, this week I’m featuring these lovely gowns. You can buy these and wear them in the privacy of your own home, enjoy their delightful flow and movement, and perhaps wear them in public  – when you are ready.

Enjoy them, and remember you can buy them at very reasonable rates online.

In the meantime, sometimes you have to learn to be invisible.

 

I’m not feeling myself this morning!

Hi,

I awoke this morning to a terrific banging. Now, I know what you’re thinking, but it wasn’t like that at all.
I pulled on a lovely apricot silk gown, and fluffy slippers, and hurried down to the front door, where I was confronted by Sylvester and Sebastian chatting away, framed by snow in the doorway.

“I had a huge curry, last night,” said Sylvester, “and I woke up to find we’d had a terrific dump!”

“Good morning, Sylvester,” I said as the two of them stood on my snowy doorstep. “I assume you’re talking about this heavy snowfall.”

“It’s about 9 inches and I couldn’t get up the drive at all.”

“Can we use your rear entrance, Fiona?” said Sebastian.  If I had a nickel for everytime…

“Why don’t you boys slip around the back of the house. Ali’s very kindly cleared the lane. You should be able to park there without difficulty,” I said.

And with that the two boys disappeared and left me to put on the hot chocolate, and warm some croissants. My friends are joining me for breakfast today as we’re working on some new ideas for the premium program. If you’re a member of this wonderful program you’ll know how much fun we have with it. If you’re not, then think about jumping in! At just $35 a year it’s the best $35 you’ll spend this year outside of Victoria’s Secret. Julie will be along soon, so I must get on. She’s snowshoeing her way up Huckleberry Close as I write this.

So, today I’m writing to talk about how to find great ideas to help you crossdress. We all need a little inspiration and time to do some planning from time to time. One of the simplest and most fun ways to spend a pleasant evening with a glass of wine and a pair of nylons, is to browse Pinterest looking for looks to emulate.

Many of you have heard me suggesting you do something other than looking at lingerie as your only crossdressingoption.  Especially if you’re over 45, trying to look like a teenage bimbo is a goal you’re unlikely to reach. We’re not all as naturally lovely as Nikki Buxton, who I was very happy to chat with a while ago. As I’ve said before, a pig in a lingerie is still a pig. Not a phrase Amanda would appreciate. Better to aim for an attainable goal.

Personally I love steampunk styles. It speaks of fun, adventure, culture and sophistication. Check out my Pinterestfor what turns my crank!

Looking like a great 45 year old woman is a viable option for a 45 year old crossdresser. Anyway, I have literally just started a Pinterest site where I post a few of my own ideas for dressing. If you follow me you may get to post to the Members Ideas Board. These may inspire you, or you may browse other looks and style. Either way, jump in there and look for a style that works for you. It’s fun and once you have a bit of an idea, you can go put and shop the entire outfit.

Once you’ve done that, crank up the volume and listen to today’s music video (below) and have a dance around the living room. What better way is there to indulge your feminine side?

If you’re in the north, I hope you are enjoying this lovely snowy weather. If not, have a great week anyway.

😊

Fiona

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ZZ Top - Sharp Dressed Man (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO)
It’s always wise to dress for success!
Chastity Devices – Breast Forms – Wigs – Corsets

Here’s a few great sleepwear ideas.

Many of my members buy their clothing online and love to use Amazon.  I’ve got a few selections below based on what my members have been buying this week.  Feel free to review any of the products you buy here. I always love to hear from my members. FD

Some great sleepwear ideas.
Some of my favorite sleepwear items are the simplest. Here’s a small selection of items my members have been buying recently, and enjoying.
You can’t beat the feel of silky material against the skin. What better way to ensure a wonderful night’s sleep!
Try some of these lovely silky pyjamas and see how wonderful you feel in the morning! All fresh and ready to go out and pretend to be almost normal, like all the people who’d love to be enjoying themselves as much as you and I.

🙂